Thank You Hashem – Week 223

-Thank you Hashem for leading me, through the darkness which is good for me – you’re always there.

-Thank You HaShem for my eyesight and letting me breathe 🙂

-Tonight I made a delicious jiben and as I was pulling it out of the oven I notice in the back of the oven on the same shelf a tin of Shepard pie from Friday night. So I called the rabbi and he asked allot of questions trying to save dinner but no good.

 

Thank you Hashem that we have rabbis and their wife’s who take time to help us find the correct answer and thanks for the courage to help me throw it out Pyrex and all.

-I’ve been taking my 7 year old to father – son learning for last few months. Every week they raffle off about 10 prizes. My child never won and got frustrated . On way home I tell him Hashem has different ways of rewarding Torah learning and you never know what it would be  and it could be also be an outside source of reward. This past motzei Shabbat he won the grand prize of a drone . He was super excited showing it to many people. I put him in the back seat of our car with the drone. As I started the engine he blurts out “thank you Hashem” 😁

-Thank you Hashem that my wife and children are all healthy and well and we see so much simcha from them.

-Thank you H-shem for doing such a miracle for my whole family.  My wife was doing the car pool on Monday and then she became distracted for one second, as she was looking for me I was supposed to do the car pool, when she turned back to look to the front she slammed on the brakes there was an older jewish man one of our neighbors who was holding on to our car not to fall down as he was about to fall down.

Thank you for having my wife stopping as the exact second not to hurt anybody.

-Thank you Hashem for making our move go very smoothly and quickly. Thank you for our new home. And thank you for always making sure we have whatever we need.

-I had an unexpected business expense hit me for about $1000. I worked very hard to take care of it however the place that I needed to handle this was not getting back to me. This was very strange. Time was of the essence and I really needed this handled but they didn’t reply to me. Hashem put in my head to call a friend that I had once helped in a pinch and see if I can buy it from him. He texts me back that he has taken care of it and best part of all it was done for FREE. By them not getting back to me I saved 1000 dollars- Thank you Hashem.

Story of My Return

by

Baruch Farbstein

I grew up in Syosset and Woodbury, Long Island, New York and attended public school, but also Hebrew School at the conservative Midway Jewish Center for two hours three times a week. I enjoyed reading stories about the Hebrews starting from when Yehoshua ben Nun led the conquest of Canaan. When I got up to the part when Shlomo HaMelech built the Temple in Yerushalayim, I got a sense that this represented a high point in history, and I so much wanted to find out if that Temple existed today and I could go and see it.

 

I started reading ahead of my class and found out that the Temple was eventually destroyed by the Babylonians, then rebuilt and eventually destroyed again by the Romans. I learned that as of today it has not been rebuilt, and that troubled me very much, even though I was not frum and never went to yeshiva.

 

In fifth grade, an extra-curricular class in Torah reading was offered at my Hebrew school. I was able to read Hebrew with the vowels in the words, but knew that the Torah scroll contained only Hebrew letters without any vowels, and I wanted to learn how to read Hebrew without vowels.  So, I signed up for this class.  However, the Rabbi trained us in the troupe for laining, not in how to read without vowels.  Although this was not what I had expected, I enjoyed the class and decided to start preparing to read an entire parsha for my Bar Mitzvah which would be two and three quarter years later.

 

While I prepared to read my entire parsha, Ki Seitzei, I found out that only students who attended yeshiva or a day school full-time were able to read an entire Torah parsha at their Bar Mitzvah.  It was virtually unheard of for someone with only a part-time Hebrew school background to be able to do such a thing.  With that in mind, and also that I so much wanted to see the Temple rebuilt in Yerushalayim, I prayed to Hashem that if I would read my entire Torah parsha at my Bar Mitzvah, which was apparently a unique accomplishment, I could be allowed to have a piece of the action in the actual Redemption and perhaps see the Third Temple with my own eyes.

 

When I was in college, I saw a bumper sticker on a car which said, “Moshiach is Coming!” I started thinking about the prayer I had made years ago.  A couple of months later, in 1991, I saw an advertisement in the The Jewish Week put out by Chabad-Lubavitch for Moshiach.  It said that Rebbe Menachem Mendel Schneerson has stated in the form of a prophecy that Moshiach is already here and that all we have to do is greet him.  It also said that by performing mitzvos it would help to hasten the process.  There was a checklist of specific mitzvos that people could choose to take on.  One was the mitzvah of learning more about Moshiach.  I decided to take on this particular mitzvah although I never sent back the ad.

 

A week or perhaps two weeks later, in the same paper, there was a very peculiar article entitled, “UFO Spotted Over Beit She’an, Israel.”  In all my years of reading The Jewish Week, I had never seen either an advertisement for Moshiach, or an article on UFOs. Suddenly, both appeared at almost the same time.  I decided to join a UFO organization with the idea that I would actually be learning more about Moshiach.

 

The local director of the UFO organization introduced me to various topics within the UFO field. One concerned a photograph taken by the Viking spacecraft in 1976 that appeared to show an image of a human face on the planet Mars.  I was fascinated and decided to attend a presentation on it.  After I heard the lecture on the “Face on Mars,” the researcher offered videos for sale.  When I finally got a chance to ask to purchase the videotape, he told me that he had no more left, but gave me the phone number of a company that produced videos and said I could buy it from them instead.

 

The videotape on Mars had a fifteen second segment about research being done on the origins of the Hebrew alphabet. It showed a man holding models related to this work.  I was very intrigued by this and wanted very much to obtain more information.  However, except for the name of the researcher, Stan Tenen, mentioned in the tape, there were no clues as to how one could contact him.  I ended up calling back the video company and asked if was possible to purchase any videotapes by Stan Tenen.  They said no but gave me Mr. Tenen’s California telephone number.

 

When I spoke with Mr. Tenen for the first time in the fall of 1993 about his research into the Hebrew alphabet, I started to get a sense that Hashem had led me to this man as a result of the prayer I had made as a child. I purchased a videotape of his and he sent me additional information about his work.  I developed a friendship with him and wife, and maintained regular contact over the next several months.

 

Then, the Tenens informed me that they had been invited by the Association of Orthodox Jewish Scientists to speak at their annual summer convention in 1994. They asked me to work with a woman friend in Brooklyn on doing something for publicity. The friend suggested that I try to write an article and get it published in the Brooklyn paper, The Jewish Press.  I said that it would be impossible because both the researcher and I had no credentials to stand on and my article would not be accepted.  She asked me if the Association of Orthodox Jewish Scientists was going to place an advertisement about the convention in The Jewish Press. If yes, then I could submit the article in reference to a paid advertisement.  After I spoke with the man at AOJS who placed the ad, I faxed my unsolicited article to the paper.  When I called them and asked if it would be possible to publish it in reference to the AOJS ad, they replied that the person who would make this decision was on vacation.

 

I went upstate to the Homowak Hotel in the Catskills for the convention to meet Stan Tenen and see his presentation live. Not only that, but this was going to be my first ever experience of Shabbos.  I ate most of the meals at the same table as the Tenens.  A couple of people came over to the researcher and said that they came to the convention specifically to see him and asked who Bruce Farbstein was.  I noted this but could not figure out why my name was brought up in their conversations.

 

I went to the hotel shul and when I heard the laining during shachris, I noted that the Torah parsha was Ki Seitzei, the same parsha I myself lained at my Bar Mitzvah.  On Sunday morning, I went to shachris again, and asked someone to lend me a pair of tefillin and help me to put it on.  Someone came forward and put tefillin on me while everyone else was davening.  Afterwards, in the dining room, the woman friend who I had spoken with before the convention approached me and said that my article actually got in to The Jewish Press.  When she showed it to me in the paper, I was overwhelmed.  I sensed that Hashem had answered my prayer and that the answer was yes.  I therefore made the decision, on the spot, to start growing in Torah observance and become a baal teshuva.

Thank You Hashem – Special, Azan Family

The little Shul on Homecrest Ave was overly crowded, packed with more people than usual on this particular Friday afternoon. It is Erev Shabbat Parshat Meketz and Shabbat Chanuka, and Rabbi Rachamim Churba is happy to see his small Shul is standing room only. With the inclement weather and a snow storm brewing, the warm neighborhood Shul has attracted many of the locals who opted to pray close on this cold Friday night.

 

At the conclusion of the prayers, Rabbi Churba stood in front of the Kahal for his usual short Friday night D’var Torah. The Rabbi spoke about Emunah and how we must learn from Yosef Hatzadik the importance of bringing Hashem into our lives and making Him part of everything we do. The Rabbi quoted Rabbi Miller Z’L who emphasized that they are so many people- religious people- that learn Torah and serve Hashem and yet somehow they go their entire lives without once saying “I Love You Hashem.” Hashem does so much for us and we have so much to be grateful for, we need to learn to turn to Hashem and actually verbalize out loud that we love Him.

 

Interrupting the speech, a man sitting in the front of the Shul spoke up and suggested, “Rabbi, why don’t we say it now?”

 

With a smile on his face Rabbi Churba readily agreed.

“OK, let’s all say it right now,” the man said as he turned to the rest of the room.

And right then and there on this beautiful Shabbat Chanukah the entire Kahal took the opportunity to publicly express their love for their Creator and proclaimed in unison “I LOVE YOU HASHEM!”

 

The man sitting in front of the Shul who had this beautiful idea and made it happen was none other than Mr. Yossi Azon.

 

May Hashem send a Refuah Shelemah to:

Yosef ben Ahuva Masuda

Shilat Ahuva bat Louza Aliza

Daniel ben Louza Alize

Thank You Hashem – Week 222

-thank You HaShem for every day You give me every single day is a present from You and for letting me do mitzvot

-I have to say thank you Hashem for 3 incredible things:

1) Right before Chanukah I fell down and broke my shoulder in just “the right way” – meaning the doctor told me it will heal by itself and I won’t need surgery. But really I say thank you Hashem that I didn’t hit my head or break my neck because I fell from a great height.

2) The first day of Chanukah my 2 year old son was playing with the pots and pans. I stepped away for a minute and when I came back I saw him surrounded by hundreds of pieces of glass. One of the lids had fallen and shattered into so many small pieces. He was sitting there still holding the metal rim not quite understanding. I quickly picked him up and brushed all the glass of him and threw out the pajamas after realizing that he hadn’t cut himself at all! Thank you Hashem.

3) The 5th day we had gone to the mikva to toivel a sandwich maker and after we came home my daughter ran to tell me that she had plugged in the (still wet) sandwich maker and it worked. I couldn’t stop yelling how it was a complete nes that nothing had happened. I had told her earlier that we had to let it completely dry for a few days before using it but she forgot. I don’t know what exactly could have happened but i know it was extremely dangerous and I thank Hashem that nothing did happen.

Thank you Hashem.

-In Florida, 7:30pm flight back to NY. The Mincha in the area I was staying starts at 520pm. Was planning to pray by myself since the airport is 45 minutes away. Received a text my delta flight is delayed an hour.   Problem solved. HASHEM wanted me to pray Rosh Chodesh with a Minyan. Thank you Hashem for delaying my flight

-Thank you Hashem for watching over my children. Two weeks ago I was waiting at my son’s bus stop after school. I decided I’d write my first contribution to this wonderful thank you Hashem email while I was waiting. All of a sudden I get a call from my friend down the block telling me that her son said that the driver dropped my son at my house because it was a substitute driver and he was just listening to the older kids directions (ridiculous,  I know). While I was on the phone my day worker clicked in telling me that my son is home. So I rush home in a panic because I know my son would be scarred as he is only 6 yrs old.  When I get home my

 

day worker tells me what really happened. She said she heard a bus pull up and she wasn’t sure why so she checked by the back door, no one was there then she went to the front and no one was there and she said she doesn’t know what made her look out a side window but she did and she saw my son heading for the corner so she ran out and caught him just before the street.  He figured he’d walk to the bus stop to come get me. She caught him just in the nick of time! He has no clue how to cross a street! I know it was Hashem that made her turn back and look out the side window! Hashem you are so amazing!

-Thank you for spreading your inspiration. I read living emunah once a day and it greatly enhances the way I go about my ordinary life and elevating it to something extraordinary knowing that my father is guiding everything I do.

-8th day of Chanukah is powerful- Thank you Hashem for the great news about Sholom Rubashkin being released from prison! And to have Trump be the one to commute his prison sentence is even more of a miracle. He is in prison for the number one Battle cry that Trump is against. Clearly Hashems hand.

Esti & Zecharia Wallerstein: My dear Sisters and Brothers.

In the Mincha Shemonei Esrei of Shabbos we proudly proclaim;

“Ato Echod V’Shimcho Echod” You (Hashem) are one and your name is one, “U’Mee K’amcho Yisroel Goy Echod” and who is like your (Hashems) nation, a united people.

 

I am taking the liberty to write to you, because what we saw today is not only an important part of history, but also proof of who we truly are, a “Goy Echad” a United people, we are all connected, we are all truly one, as Rav SM Rubashkin shlita proclaimed together with hundreds or perhaps thousands of Women,  Men, teens and children “Shema Yisroel, Hashem Elokeinu, Hashem Echod”.

 

Have any of you heard the name “Mark Denny”?

 

I’m sure most of you have not, let me introduce him, he is a 46 year old African American man who has been in a NYState prison for the last 30 years, yes THIRTY years, falsely accused of horrific crimes that he supposedly didn’t do.

 

Where am I going with this you may ask? So here goes, today Wednesday, 20 December (just a few hours prior to Rubashkin’s release) a Judge in downtown Brooklyn’s Supreme Court, dismissed his case, and he walked out of the Courthouse, a free man.

 

Who was there to greet him? Who danced in the streets? How many people were there? Let me tell you, not even a handful, his mom was there, his attorney and perhaps one or two more family members.

 

Just a few hours later, as Rubashkin was being released in a small town in  upstate NY, there were people that never met him from Bloomingburg, to greet him and sing, and as soon as Jews heard the good news, Yidden of all ages, in all Jewish communities, all over the Globe from the US east to west coast, from Europe  to Israel and anywhere  in between, from Chasidish to Litvish, to Modern Orthodox, all took to the streets and to Shuls to dance and to thank Hashem for this great miracle and to partake in this great Simcha of a man they never met, and perhaps never will meet, a great number of people aren’t even intimately familiar with the “Rubashkin” case, yet, K’ish Echod – B’lev Echod, like one person, like one heart, we cried tears of joy, we sang and danced.  Why? Because Klal Yisroel, each and every Jew is interconnected and part of this great puzzle, this great Mosaic called “Am Yisrael” , we truly showed that we are the “Goy Echod”

 

Let us take this Achdus and Simcha to heart, and let this feeling towards you fellow Yid, carry forward and stay with us, until the true “Echod” will in this merit send Moshiach to take us the “Goy Echod”  with song and dance, B’Halel V’hodoyu L’hashem Echod,  as am Am Echod, into our Homeland Eretz-Yisroel speedily. Amen.

 

With blessings, Mi K’amcho Yisroel.

Thank You Hashem – Week 221

-Thank you Hashem for saving us from what could have been a major accident! A few Sundays ago, it was an EXTREMELY WINDY day. My family and I were in the car on the Garden State Pkwy on our way to Lakewood. My husband was driving and you could literally feel the wind shaking the car. Suddenly out of nowhere a huge steel ladder came flying out onto the road (Due to the high winds it probably fell off some truck) and right towards us!! My husband quickly swerved the car over the next two lanes! BH, Bechasdei Hashem there was not a car in sight in those two lanes we swerved over into to avoid crashing into the ladder! BH, everyone was fine and Hashem really saved us from what could have been a major accident. Thank you Hashem!!!!!!!

-Thank you Hashem for helping me out with something in work. I had a made a mistake on something which could have been a huge problem. I prayed to Hashem, and BH it was easily resolved without any major issues. Thank you Hashem!

-My 2-year-old niece in Yerushalayim was taken in to the Hospital this past Erev Shabbos afternoon with a blood clot on her brain. Lo Aleinu, Bar Minan. May Hashem give her a complete Refuah b’karov.

 

She had a stroke on Erev Shabbos, and went into Shabbos not being able to move her left side, and struggling to talk.

 

As of yesterday, she was Boruch Hashem starting to walk, climb, talk, and even color a little with her right side. now, we get to say the whole Hallel for a whole 8 days! to thank Hashem.

 

She still needs our Prayers, Chaya Rochel bas Esther Malka, B’soch sh’ar cholei yisroel.

-I have a quick story to share. I have been working lately on strengthening my emunah and bitachon. I started reading Rabbi Ashear’s book and have been reading a chapter each day. Anyway, this morning I couldn’t find my house keys anywhere. They were not in my purse and they were not in my car. I was worried that I had left them hanging in the lock of my mailbox. Of course, I started to panic. Then a calm came over me, and I sat down and talked to Hashem. I told Him that I knew he’d help me and that I had complete bitachon. I read a Tehilim with kavanah. When I stood up to go check the mailbox, I put my hand in the front pocket of my purse. My keys were there. That was Hashem telling me that I am on the right path and that He is with me and supporting my efforts. So thanks Hashem and thank you Rabbi Ashear for your book. My Hashem bring you many blessings. Have a wonderful and meaningful Hanukah.

-Thank You HaShem for letting me have eyesight to see the menorah candles!

  • I was dealing with a customer on an order. This has been going on for a couple of years. The head of department kept changing and it was very slow moving. I got an email last week from someone on the inside that likes me telling me to email it to a yet new head of department again. I followed up a week or so later with this head that I have never said a word to. He answers his line right away on his own. I introduce myself and make a courtesy check in type of call. He replies that he already sent in the approval order to the main office and even added if I like I can call them to rush it. Thank you Hashem.

  • I haven’t turned on my laptop for a while. I turned it on to test it before taking it away and it would not work. It stayed on a frozen screen. I tried for a couple of hours different things. Went out and came back and said this is obviously in Hashem’s hands, I prayed to Hashem to just make it work and I started it up and it worked. Hashem makes the wonder of the computer to begin with, of course he can fix it. Thank you Hashem.

-Thank you Hashem for the Kiddush Hashem of Hanukah

Thank You Hashem – Special

I thank Hashem for the nes and Chesed he has done for us. I would like to share with all of you an amazing story that changed our lives forever. On December 5th 2014   (יג כסלו) Friday morning, about 10 am while I was at work. I got a phone call from my house. Knowing that my wife would regularly be at work at that time, I picked up the phone with a little trepidation, not expecting to hear a strange voice letting me know that my wife had fainted and she was being rushed to Maimonides hospital. Before I go on I just want to let everyone know that the nes started that same day because my wife fainted at the front door with it open as she was about to leave to work and Hashem gave her enough strength to scream for help before losing consciousness.  A random person and a nurse that just so happened to be passing by heard it and rushed to my wife’s aid. The reason I say that, is because if it would have happened five minutes earlier she would have been behind a closed door and chas veshalom no one would have heard her and she could have been chas veshalom holding the baby. And if it would happen five minutes later she would have been in the car driving on the way to work with baby in the back Hashem yerachem. So I also thank Hashem for letting it happen that very minute and not before or after. (Back to the story) I got to the hospital as my wife was wheeled in and I have never seen her like that, it really scared me. They rushed her in to the cat scan to look at the head, only to come out and give me the worst news I can possibly get, that she had a brain aneurysm and that she has bleeding in the brain and they must perform an emergency operation to release the pressure of the brain to try to stop the bleed. I broke into tears trying to take in what they had just told me and in the same time trying to think what decision to make. The doctor told me time is a big factor and we must make a fast decision. B”h I had my sister and a special shaliach that helped me throughout the whole time. They rushed her into the operating room to put a drain in the brain and at the same time the doctor will try to stop the bleeding with a less invasive operation which means going in through the main artery in the leg up into the brain. We right away spread the word and my wife’s situation went viral. The doctor came out letting me know that b”h he was able to put in the drain, but with the same breath told me that he couldn’t stop the bleed because of the place where it was, which was a non-common spot and on a very small vessel and he did not feel confident he can get to it. I can’t even begin to describe how that made me feel and what that made me think. The next step was to actually go in and remove a part of the brain so they can get to the bleed, with only Hashem knowing what the end results would have been. The doctor had said many things that I’d rather not repeat but one can only imagine what. At this time she was in stable but critical condition and I had to act fast, like I said time was of the essence. B”h with much help of a lot of people especially that shliach that was able to guide me to the right doctor and actually called the Chief doctor in NY Presbyterian that he personally knows and made all the arrangements for my wife to be transferred there. At this point my wife was in the N.I.C.U on a respirator fighting for her life while we were waiting for transportation. Later that night, at about 10pm Friday night she was transported to NY Presbyterian hospital N.I.C.U. Shabbat morning me and my sister met with the Chief neurosurgeon and chief noninvasive neurosurgeon. They basically told me the same things over, letting me know how serious her condition is and that the aneurysm caused a stroke to the left side of her body. They both decided that they want to try again the noninvasive procedure, which means going through the main artery in the leg all the way up to the brain to try and stop it. If that didn’t work, they would then have to go in and remove some of the brain to get to it, and if she would survive it would be under very different circumstances and her life, our life would be changed forever.  I asked the doctors why they feel they will be able to do it. They just said they feel they may have a 25% chance. They said that every hospital has different tools and they want to give it a try once more before going to the next step. The first thing I thought was that everyone’s tefilot all through the night definitely helped because that was the first relatively good news I had gotten. The doctor told me that the surgery would take anywhere from an hour to eight hours. I brook down crying shook the doctor’s hands and told him take care of my wife and we will be praying for him so that G-d directs his hands in the right direction. He thanked me and said he will do the best he can. B”h with everyone’s tefilot and all the tears that were spilled the doctor came out of the OR after about an hour and a half, and to be honest after telling me how complicated and how big the risk is and how long it may take I was scared to see him so soon and thought the worst. As the doctor sat down next to me in the waiting room I again just started crying not knowing what he is about to tell me. He took a deep breath and then told us about the big miracle that happened. He had gone in to view the aneurysm only to find out that a blood clot had formed over it, causing the bleeding to stop. I shook his hand and asked him if he believes in miracles. He smiled and said, “I know u guys pray a lot and have very strong faith. In my 30 plus years of being a doctor I have never seen anything like this and there is no other way of explaining what had happened.” The whole time I prayed to Hashem that I know that everything he does is letova but I ask that he please make it that it would be revealed good in my eyes. B”h not in my zechut but in my wife’s and everyone else zechut that had a part in it, my wife is here with us today and besides getting stronger and back to herself with physical therapy she is b”h fully functioning, in every aspect. The day my wife was discharged the doctors came and asked her what she had felt throughout the whole thing. My wife had a stage 4 aneurysm, 5 being the worst, and they said most people don’t make it through a stage 3, and that they never got to speak to someone that went through it. The last scan that my wife did, shows that the aneurysm has completely disappeared.

Yishtabach ve’yithalel sh’mo l’ad.

I want to thank Hashem for giving us a miracle with in a miracle. Now when we celebrate Chanukah’s miracle we also celebrate our own. All I can say is always believe in Hashem because he is the only one that is hakol yechol and he can change everything even though it doesn’t seem so.     Shabbat shalom and Chanukah sameach.

Thank You Hashem -Week 220

Hello, Today (Sunday 11/26  )  a miracle from Hashem I was alone watching my 3 kids (6,6 and 4 years old) I gave my 4 year old a lollipop , I get a text at 10: 57am that the cable Comcast  arrived for install in my new home . “I run downstairs to open the door at 1057 and when I get to the bottom of steps my daughter is hunched over and gagging.  I pat her back still gasping, with no sign of food in her mouth. I stick my finger down her throat and pull a whole lollypop with stick out. (See pic below of what was lodged in her throat) 2 miracles happened –     1. My original appointment date was yesterday on Shabbat and I canceled the appointment and made it a day later Sunday in honor of Shabbat .!       Another miracle is he didn’t arrive till” 15 min later after the message was sent, “that tech arrived “!!!   The dispatch texted me at 1057am that he arrived! even though he didn’t till past 11:15, They never did that before.   If I was upstairs not coming down to answer for Comcast this day could have been tragic as I was alone with my kid’s baby sitting …Another part of this miracle is 4 weeks prior I see a young 4-year-old girl (same age as my daughter) in a restaurant near where I work. She is the cutest girl but was having chemo and my heart was breaking for her. I prayed every day for her in amida saying refua shelemah. I promised H-Shem if he can cure this girl 100% I will keep Shabbat and he can even take years from my own life and give to her.   Right after the incident Sunday, with the choking I eat lunch with my family and who comes in and sits behind us, this little girl. praying for her life saved my own child. I love Hashem  This is a true story that happened to me

  • I was about to purchase a basketball court for my son. We have been checking them out for a few weeks now and I decided to buy one. I was now looking for someone to put it together and then I was ready to pull the trigger. Out of nowhere my wife gets a call from my Aunt asking if she knows anyone who wants a perfect condition basketball court. She has it in her yard but no one ever uses it. This was a great gift from Hashem. My sons went to pick it up with our minivan but could not get it in. Right next door there were workers working on a house. They said they had a truck and could bring it over for us. All set up in our Backyard-thank you to my Aunt and thank you Hashem for this gift. All put together and everything. Perfect timing!

-Thank you Hashem for these wonderful weekly emails. This is my first contribution, I always read them and they make me so happy that I decided I wanted to join. I have so so much to be grateful for! Besides the things we sometimes take for granted like our ability to get out of bed every day, our eyesight…This past year we could buy a small house and we had a baby boy and my heart is truly bursting with gratitude to you Hashem for the gift of new life! Each child brings tremendous Simcha and beracha into our home! And even though we’ve been financially struggling trying to pay the mortgage I know Hashem is seeing us what we need and He will bring financial relief very very soon beH! I love you Hashem!

-My best friend has had tremendous back pain for several months now and I was trying to help him with something specific related to the pain. Shortly after that, during that day while I was still with my friend, I started having very similar back pain that he was having.  I couldn’t believe it, was this a Joke Hashem? How could it be that I would all of a sudden out of nowhere have such serious back pain?  Ok, I figured it was just a pulled muscle and it would go away in a few days. Three days later on Shabbat the pain was still there and worse than before.   I started speaking to Hashem to try and figure all of this out, thinking if I’m helping a friend to deal with this issue for some time now, what does Hashem want or need from me that he would give me a similar painful ailment?

As Shabbat ended it dawned on me that maybe Hashem was telling me that if I really wanted to help my friend that I shouldn’t just sympathize with his pain but I should really feel what he is feeling and then I can really appreciate what he is going through. After all he has been going through this for a while now and it is only natural for others to become less sensitive to what another person is feeling and going through when they are presented with such a personal struggle. I told all of this to my friend and said that I truly feel your pain and think this is why Hashem gave it to me as well and that we should both have an immediate Refuah Shelema. Another week went by with no letup of the pain, I was forced to go to a Dr. to get some help, which I did, but still with a lot of Pain into another Shabbat…Now in my learning while all of this was going on the topic of “Gid Hanashe” (The Sciatic Nerve) was brought as a proof for something and it got into detail about the subject so we spent time on it, plus last week’s Parasha “VaYishlah” is the Parasha that teaches about the Gid and I noticed this clearly and the fact that my back/Gid was hurting me at the same time! There are no coincides, everything that happens to us is a direct message from Hashem, you just have to have eyes of Emunah to see it. I tell my Cousin who I’m learning with all of this and he just says “Tikun”.   As he said it I immediately accepted it all with love and Emet and added, just like the Parasheot come and pass so to should my pain pass with it. I came home Motze Shabbat and said it over to my family and the next morning I woke up with almost all of my pain GONE!    YISTABACH SHEMO L’AD!  My pain is indeed passing and I am very grateful to Hashem that I was able to see and know that Hashem was talking to me.   Maybe it was to really feel what my friend was feeling so I can help him better or maybe it was in fact a Tikun of some sort or maybe both but either way I’m thankful the pain is mostly gone.  Now just knowing a little of the pain and difficultly my friend is going through maybe I can really pray for him better along with all the Cho’le of Am Yisrael have an immediately Refuah Shelema! Amen.

  • IN Mexico on business. Someone gave me $300 to bring back to NY. I put the money in my front pocket.  The same pocket I keep my phone. I took a Uber to my meeting. In the car I realized the money was missing. I told the driver to go back to the hotel.   Went back to the area in the lobby were I was having my coffee and sure enough BH the money was there on the floor.  Thank you Hashem!!

 

-This week, President Trump recognized Yerushalayim as the capital of Israel. Although there are risks involved with this announcement, it is a huge step for our brothers & sisters that live there. And a good response to the UN resolution that former President Obama let pass as a lame duck president. Thank You Hashem for allowing this progress to be made. Hopefully, it is a prelude to the coming of Moshiach & the building of the 3rd Beis Hamikdash.

 

-Thank you Hashem for always making sure everything goes smooth. Planning on moving and was worried about all the arrangement’s and Hashem took care of it all. Thank you Hashem it will never be enough as much as I say it I still don’t say it enough. Thank you.

-My daughter was driving down a street yesterday when a car coming from a cross street didn’t see her & was heading right for the driver’s door of her car! Boruch Hashem she was able to veer to the side & got hit only on the front panel of the car & did not get hurt. Thank You Hashem, Shomer Yisrael!

-Thank you Hashem for being with us every minute of every day. Thank you for helping us find a bigger roomier Apartment that’s perfect for our growing family. Knowing that you’re looking out for us is the ultimate comfort!

-Thank you Hashem my mother is home from rehab. For giving her her health and the strength to be with us.

-I went shopping and got an amazing parking spot- right by the exit of the store- so I didn’t have to walk with my full cart of groceries! thank you Hashem.

Thank You Hashem – Week 219

  • So much to be thankful for! My brother made a Bar Mitzvah this past Shabbos & all siblings came in for the event, as well as my parents. Meanwhile, my sister from Chicago, whose daughter recently got engaged, made an engagement party on the East Coast as well, as everyone was together anyway & the chossons family is from here. Thank You Hashem for a wonderful family & simchas to enjoy together. On a separate note, my daughter & her family moved into a house, which we are extremely grateful to Hashem for. & I was zoche to put up a mezuza & help infuse kedusha into it. We daven to Hashem that he keeps on showering us with bracha.
  • Thank You Hashem for giving me the zechus to attend a morning shiur that just made a siyum on meseches Shevous. This was a year & a half in the making & felt great to finish up & start a new mesechta. Hoping Hashem gives us the zechus to finish many more!
  • Thank You HaShem for being approachable… even though You’re the Greatest, you still listen to every person and care about everyone all I can think of is "איו כמוך באלקים ה’ ואין כמעשיך"! I needed to talk to a higher up person today and I was extremely nervous the entire day I couldnt help but think how grateful I am that this is not so when I talk to Hashem… I love You!
  • thank you Hashem for the challenges that help us come closer to you and pray harder.
  • Thank you Hashem, Bh! We planned to travel

My wife turns to me and said we need new luggage

Bh that evening my uncle calls

We decided to buy new luggage we have older ones that were never used Im sure you can use it. Come by and pick it up, Bh it was perfect timing!!!!

  • When I booked tickets to fly to the West coast with my wife (a long flight), there were only middle seats available. When I checked in to the flight, the seat map wasn’t showing much better choices. I went out of the seat map and went back in and an aisle seat showed up. I quickly took it and found a middle seat in the next row. Because I had an aisle seat, I could trade with the person next to the middle seat and we were able to sit together. Thank You Hashem for working that out for us.
  • The power steering of my car broke and I had to drive without power steering for a day and a half. Thank You Hashem for power steering!!
  • For the past 6 or 7 months, I was meaning to call on a customer that I didnt hear from in a very long time. Out of nowhere they contacted me. It was for something small. Baruch Hashem by the end of the call we quadrupled the order. Thank you Hashem.
  • Thank you Hashem for my wonderful family.
  • Thank you Hashem for the lessons learned from the Kiddush Hashem life of Rabbi Zev Tikotzky zsl.

Thank You Hashem – Week 218

  • Thank You Hashem my kids are happy in school.
  • I was walking through my Yeshiva looking to make some food. So, I went into the kitchen, full of knives and utensils. I was trying to make a non-kosher item for breakfast. I was with a couple of my friends and I asked one of them to pass me the knife. I was expecting him to pass the knife, when instead he threw it. As I took a step to my left I slipped on a broken egg, and felt the knife fly passed my ear. As I was on the ground cringing in pain I recognized that the knife had gotten stuck in fridge. Right where the “Thank You Hashem” sticker is. I realized then, that Hashem plays a major role in my everyday life, and he is constantly watching over me and all of us. From that moment on I have decided that it is Hashem’s will that I become religious and follow all the Jewish laws. All I can say is, Thank You Hashem!!!!!
  • Thank you Hashem that after a year of trying to convince myself that the grapes I can’t reach may be sour and it’s all for the good – You proved it so.
  • Thank you Hashem. Got a nice surprise. I received an email telling me that the prices on the flights I booked went down $160 and I am getting a 160-dollar credit. I never heard of such a thing. Happens to be that the person who made my reservation had an account that allows for refunds if the fare changes. Thank you Hashem for this surprise bonus.
  • Thank you HASHEM for the rain!! it finally rained in Yerushalayim today!
  • Thank you Hashem for the tremendous sadik and Talmid chacham that I was zoche to learn with and from. Thank you for all I have learned and gained from Rabbi Zev Tikotzky zs’l, I will miss him dearly.
  • Thank you Hashem that I am wise enough to know to thank you every day for everything you do for me. I do not need a one day Holiday to be reminded. Thank you Hashem.
  • Thank you Hashem for this amazing blog that helps bring light into our lives.
  • So enjoyable to thank borei olam every day. I was in the lunch room at work and there were a few goyim sitting there. I thought I would mention something to them regarding thanking g-d being Thanksgiving was upon us. I started mentioning how we should always be appreciative of our blessings and gifts from g-d. I mentioned it was very nice to have a day like thanksgiving to remember to be thankful. 2 of the people were like, what are you talking about? Thanksgiving is a time to get together with your family and have a feast, we don’t say thank you to g-d for anything. The 3rd one said, come to think of it I guess we are supposed to be thankful. They do not even know the meaning to their own holidays. It seems it all about being selfish, the opposite of thanking Hashem. It is all about eating and not so much about thanking. I was very upset but then was happy to see that our people are not like this. We know every day is a gift and everything we are given is from Hashem. More importantly for the most part we are appreciative to Hashem for all he does for us. Thank you Hashem for this arena where we can publicly thank you, it is a Kiddush Hashem much greater than any thanksgiving can ever be.
  • I was driving on 3rd ave by the underpass. There is a part where it swerves a bit. The car next to me was losing control and about to crash right into me. I do not know how, but somehow, I maneuvered in what seemed like 100 different moves and avoided the car from hitting me. My friend in the passenger seat said, wow that was great driving. I said wow that was not great driving, that was all Hashem, there is no explanation I can give for us not colliding, it was crystal clear. Thank you Hashem.
  • Thank you Hashem for the beautiful site I saw today. It is something I knew existed but seeing it sparked a Kiddush Hashem. Saw the senior’s men’s class at Bnei Binyamin in action. Saw the mesirut nefesh for torah that these men gladly do. Saw men in wheelchairs and other issues sitting with Rabbi Seruya and learning Torah. As I walked out leaving my class I was drawn back to go back and sit with them even for a short amount of time as to be able to say that I was sitting at the table of this Kiddush Hashem. Rabbi Seruya said many times that it was worth it to build the building and shul just for this class alone. After seeing it in action I now have a better understanding. May Hashem bless the Rabbi and all the men attending these classes and all their families. Thank you Hashem for Bnei Binyamin.

Special Edition

A Change of Mind

For those of you whove never experienced a migraine,(and בעה,I hope you never do!), you should just know that it’s not just a little headache. Aside from the intense pounding and throbbing pain, which feels like the head will actually explode from the pressure, migraines are totally debilitating and basically affect all of the senses. While usually preceded by a group of warning signals such as fatigue, flushed cheeks, stuffy nose, increase or loss of appetite, visual disturbances and then a gradual worsening of head pain , migraines can also come on suddenly in a frightening intensity which words cannot describe. Extreme nausea accompanies the head pain, and when you’re finally in the mood to eat something you have to hope that it stays down and doesn’t make a grand reappearance. Noises are magnified, sense of smell is heightened and adds to the general nausea, and the eyes can’t open fully to admit in the light which increases the pain. Talking is strained and difficult and takes much energy. Any movement at all, causes terrible pain. You barely sleep from the pain by night, and by day you lay down quietly waiting for the tumultuous storm to pass. When the pain finally does pass, its still not over yet. The pain dissipates, only to be replaced by this run-over-by-a-truck feeling where you are still totally immobilized. Plus, on top of that your head is so full of fog that you are left dazed, confused, and unable to think clearly. This phase of the migraine can last for a full day or more!

So now that we’ve established what exactly a migraine headache is, let me tell you that I’ve been suffering from migraines for over 30 years. It wasn’t so bad in the beginning. I would take over the counter painkillers, lay down a bit and the pain would pass rather quickly. As the years went by, the pain started getting more intense and the duration was longer. The headaches started to last for a full day, then three days, then a whole week, nine days, then for two weeks straight. I’d get a headache for two weeks, have one sort-of-recovery-week, then get another two week headache. I became so weak even when I didn’t have a migraine that I stopped driving, stopped doing the food shopping, stopped bathing the kids and putting them to bed, and l felt grateful and lucky if I got dinner on the table. Yom Kippur became a nightmare for me. Of course I was absolved from fasting all other fasts during the year including תשעה באב, because fasting triggered a migraine that could not be reversed even if I were to break my fast. I would be terrified for months before Yom Kippur and it wasnt because I was afraid of the impending דין! On most Yom Kippurim I would be in such horrible pain that I needed to go to the emergency room for IV and strong painkillers. On a good fast I would walk to a local hospital, and on a difficult fast it wouldnt be uncommon to see the Hatzolah men in their white kittels who would interrupt their davening to rush me to the hospital. In the best case scenario, I would stay in bed all day and my girls would take turns between running the house and seeing if I needed anything and going to Shul.

The hospital knew me by name and had my cocktail of drugs prepared for me: Toradol, Morphine, Benadryl, and Zofran through IV, and I would come home a little more able to bear the unbearable pain. Sometimes I would be admitted in the hospital until they found a steroid to bring down the pain. I was going through Percocets like water. 120 Percocets would last me about a month, which was aside from all the other drugs I was taking.

Throughout the years I missed many of my kids plays, important milestones, family Simachot and get togethers, graduations, my daughters Sheva Berachot, and most recently, I missed my own daughters engagement party because of a severe migraine!

Now let me share with you what I’ve tried to help the headaches. I went to the top neurologist. I took beta blockers, anti depressants, and anti seizure medications. I did nerve blocks. I got shots in my head. I drank water, did exercise, went to a chiropractor, did acupuncture. I traveled to Florida to see a special Japanese acupuncturist. I used a tens machine daily. I had a whole bag of vitamins that I carried around with me everywhere. I did kiniseology. I took Chinese medicines. I also tried avoiding foods. I stayed off of sugar completely. I went off wheat, dairy, MSG, chocolate, and night shades. This is just a partial listing of the things I have tried over the years, as I don’t think you have the time or patience to hear everything I’ve done!

I also went to Rabbis for Berachot. We went to the Greats in Eretz Yisrael, or anywhere for that matter. Many Rabbis graciously gave me a Berachah or Segula which infused me with hope each time anew.

I became the symbol for migraines. If people would meet me on the street, they would inevitably greet me with, Hi! How are the migraines? And I would answer with the latest thing I was doing or the latest Beracah I’d gotten, and say Hashem has a Zman for everything, and hopefully mine will be soon

I’m sure you’re wondering by now, So what did work in the end? I’ll answer you by saying Hashem Himself cured me, בכבודו ובעצמו!

Let me tell you how it came about. My brother, David, had become close to a Rabbi from Cleveland and he was totally inspired and enchanted by him. Whenever I was with my brother he would tell me stories of his Rebbes Bitachon and advise me to give him a call for the migraines. Each time I would tell him, He sounds like my type, but what do you want me to tell him, Hi, I have a headache?! What will he do for me already? But my brother persisted. A few days before Sukkot, David excitedly informed us that Rabbi Yisroel Brog שליטא would be giving a Shiur in his house that night. I was in bed with a migraine ( surprise, surprise) and I told my husband, Eliyahu, to speak with the Rabbi and get me a Berachah. When Eliyahu spoke to Rabbi Brog after the Shiur, the Rabbi said that he couldn’t really help me as it sounded like my situation was above his head and he never dealt with this before. When my husband came home, in answer to my hopeful inquiry, So, what did he say? Eliyahu very wisely told me about the beautiful and inspiring Shiur Rabbi Brog gave, and suggested that I call him myself. Had my husband told me that the Rabbi couldn’t help me, I wouldn’t have been surprised, but I never would have called him at all.

Sukkot came and went, with my brother talking of course, about his beloved Rebbe and trying to convince me to call him. After Yom Tov was over, David called me up and said, Listen, how about if I call Rabbi Brog first and tell him about you, then you can call after and hear his advice? I was okay with that and I told him to go ahead. David called me back that night and told me that I could call Rabbi Brog at 9:30 . I called exactly on time , but the Rabbi didn’t answer. A little while later I was surprised to find Rabbi Brog’s number on the caller ID – he was calling me back, as he had missed my call! I introduced myself as David’s sister, and I started to tell him about my migraines. He asked what I had done for the pain, and I started rattling off a bunch of different things I’d tried. I ended off by saying that for the past year I was working very hard using the Doctor Sarno method. Then on the spot, he started telling me, OK. If a person has a headache and he takes medication and it goes away, then it’s just a כפרה and he can move on with his life.

But if you’re telling me how you have suffered, and it’s getting worse and worse, and nothing is alleviating the pain, then it’s Hashem that is giving you a message. Rabbi Brog continued, Hashem is knocking on your door with a message, and you’re not answering! So number one, what I want you to do is to say, I’m sorry Hashem. I’m sorry that You have been trying so hard to give me a message and I’ve been turning to all these different forms of healing but I haven’t been turning to the True Source, which is You! He said to say, I acknowledge that the pain is only from You, Hashem, and You alone can take it away and heal me.

I thought to myself, All right, that makes sense, I can do that. Then Rabbi Brog continued, Number two, what I want you to do is use your head. Use your head like you have never used your head before! Use your head to thank Hashem, to appreciate Hashems kindness. Don’t use your head for negativity or negative thoughts. If you use your head the way Hashem wants you to, then there’s no need for Him to give you a headache to wake you up.

He told me, I don’t really know you from beans, only you can know yourself and you know exactly how you have to use your head properly. I thought that was logical.

"And number three, people look at you like you are a good person, and if people always see you with a headache, then you’re making Hashem look bad! People will say, Why is a good person suffering? (In fact, I did hear this exact sentiment quite often from people) He said, I don’t want anyone to ever hear from your mouth I have a headache. Your children should constantly hear you saying, Thank you Hashem that Mommy doesn’t have a headache! No more complaining! ( He would later come to add a number four and a number five. Number four was to try to bring Kavod to Hashem with my head and to think of ways to bring Kavod to Hashem. Number five was to take time each day to think about the עשר זכירות and focus on each one of them.)

Rabbi Brog told me about his grandfather, Rabbi Avigdor Miller ,זצל who worked very hard never to complain, even when he was in great pain so that he shouldn’t make Hashem look bad. I laughed and said, Rabbi Brog, I don’t think it’s possible for me not to complain that I have a headache! Not only that, but I don’t need to say anything at all, people can see it on my face! He told me, You can do it. He then went on to tell me about how he once fell down a whole flight of stairs in his house and his knee was broken so badly that he actually saw it protruding from his pants! Rabbi Brog relayed to me how he concentrated on the four letter Name of Hashem in a deep meditation to get himself to rise above the pain. By the time the ambulance got him to the hospital he wasn’t in pain at all! The doctors were shocked when he said his knee wasn’t hurting at all since that type of break is usually accompanied by excruciating pain. They asked the Rabbi if they could touch the knee and he said, Sure. They proceeded to push and prod the affected area fully expecting Rabbi Brog to cry out or just wince in pain but it really wasn’t hurting!

What Rabbi Brog was in essence conveying to me was that I was relating to my migraines from an emotional standpoint. When a person is in pain and he cries out, he is acting based on his emotions. What he wanted me to do was to use my head or my שכל to rise above the pain. By not complaining when I would have a headache I would be letting logic or שכל rule over the emotions and that’s exactly what he wanted me to do. He also told me, Imagine if you had terrible teeth and you needed tons of work done by a dentist to correct it. A good dentist offers to do all the work for free. After about an hour and a half of him working on you, he tells you he will be taking a short break, but will continue in a few minutes. Meanwhile, your husband walks in and asks how you’re doing. You tell him, This is terrible! This guy is killing me! It’s horrible! The dentist overhears you and says, Hey, that’s how you talk? I’m doing you a favor! This is what Hashem is doing for us, but even more! Rabbi Brog said, When you’re in the dentist chair it may be uncomfortable, and it might hurt, but you’re not afraid because you know you’re in good hands. That’s how we have to feel with Hashem. He made sure to stipulate that he wasnt guaranteeing that this would help for me, but at least, if I listened to his advice I would be getting a מצוה of exercising בטחון. He then reviewed with me everything he had told me so I shouldn’t forget anything, I thanked him for his time and we hung up the phone.

I was visibly moved and excited. When I had called him my head was hurting, and I was on steroids to bring the pain under control (which wasn’t even helping.) After I hung up with the Rabbi, my head was still hurting but I decided I wasn’t taking any more steroids and I would immediately put into practice everything the Rabbi told me. I felt as if Hashem was talking to me directly through Rabbi Brog.

The next morning I woke upFINE! No headache! I was exhilarated! I called up Rabbi Brog to thank him ( profusely!) and he told me to keep it up. As the days passed I was surprised to find that I was feeling better and better. I saw the סייתא דשמייא that Hashem was giving me from day to day and I started to feel like a new person. At the same time, I didnt tell anyone about my conversation with Rabbi Brog(except my brother, of course) because although I knew without a doubt that what he was telling me was the absolute אמת , I thought that I wouldnt be able to keep up the initial excitement to work on myself the way the Rabbi prescribed. What I didnt take into account was, Desperate times call for desperate measures. I was in such a desperate מצב ,with no one but Hashem to turn to, that I put all of my effort into working on myself in ways that I never in my wildest dreams thought were possible. Things like כעס ,negative thinking, or getting upset became not things that I have to work on(one day) ,but things to work on today-right now ! I saw that Hashem was with me and helping me, and I began to realize that even a regular, plain person like me could build a close relationship with Hashem.

It’s a year later now, and I’m not going to say that I lived happily ever after, and never got a headache ever again. But I will say that I lived happily ever after and I learned some unbelievable lessons on the way. I am so grateful to Hashem for allowing me to build this relationship with Him. I feel like Hashem is showing me exactly what He wants from me. When I am excited about life, about having a healthy body, about having a husband and children, parents, in laws, and friends, (who by the way, went beyond the call of duty to do everything to help me), about air to breathe, about Torah and Mitzvot, I won’t have a headache. But the second I complain, This house is so messy! Why do I have to keep cleaning and it never stays clean? Boom! The headache comes instantly. If I realize my error, apologize to Hashem, and improve myself, it will go away very quickly, even instantly. If I don’t use my head properly the way Hashem wants me to, He lets me know it. Sometimes I can’t figure out what I did wrong and Hashem is still so good and kind, that if I focus on trusting in Hashem and אין עוד מלבדו it will also go away considerably quicker than before.

I started to call Rabbi Brog more and more for general guidance or other עצות . When my son got engaged, I was overtired and exhausted since my daughter was also engaged at this time( a sure trigger for a migraine). As the time for his engagement party drew nearer, the pain in my head became more pronounced. Half an hour before I had to leave to the kallahs house, I called up Rabbi Brog with a splitting headache, and asked him what I should do. He told me, Take some time to yourself and try to focus. Tell Hashem, Hashem, You gave me this son, and now that I can give my son to his kallah to get married, it is also from You. I stayed in my room for twenty minutes concentrating on what the Rabbi told me, and then I was totally fine! The music, lights, and people at the engagement, which definitely should have aggravated a migraine in progress didnt bother me at all! The next day, which was Friday, found me really overtired now. The migraine was coming back with a vengeance, and I was a little embarrassed to call back Rabbi Brog for an עצה again. When it was almost Shabbat, I was in unbearable pain. I got over my embarrassment and made the call. He said, Shabbos is coming! Think about Shabbos! Think about honoring the Shabbos! Think about the beauty of Shabbos! Tell Hashem that you want to keep His Shabbos and enjoy His Shabbos! Try to focus your mind on this, and בעה ,youll be better. I asked him, Im in a lot of pain. Should I take a painkiller? He answered, If you need it, you could take it. But try first without it. I did what Rabbi Brog told me, and guess what? I didnt need painkillers, and I was GREAT over Shabbat! I called the Rabbi right after Shabbat to tell him the good news.(I think he was getting used to my nudging phone calls by now!) On another occasion , I woke up with a pounding headache. I became filled with dread and thought, Oh no, Hashem, please not now! I sat down at the table barely able to move. Then one of my younger daughters just decided on her own to wash the little ones נטילת ידים instead of me. I became confident that Hashem was with me and helping me. I used every ounce of strength to say out loud, Kids, let’s say thank you Hashem that Mommy doesn’t have a headache! After that the headache just magically disappeared!

Hashem in His mercy shows me that Lashon Harah is REAL, and you have to pay for it. Hashem shows me that Shabbat is real, and we have to treat Shabbat properly. He shows me that being negative is not something that He wants. Hashem shows me that jealousy is a Middah He’s not fond of. Hashem shows me that He really doesn’t like complaints. One time, I thought if I make a joke out of my complaint and laugh about it, then it wouldn’t really be complaining, but Hashem didn’t think it was funny. And He let me know it.

I am extremely fortunate to be getting these love messages from Hashem all the time. With Hashems help, I started doing my own food shopping again. I started driving again. I do homework with my kids, and say Shema at night and Modeh Ani in the morning with them. We thank Hashem together for His kindnesses to all of us. This past Yom Kippur was the first Yom Kippur that בה I was able to fast, take care of my kids AND daven! On the morning of the fast my girls had their usual discussion of who is staying with Mommy at what time and who would go to Shul. I cut into the conversation and said, Girls this year no one has to stay with me. You can ALL go to Shul if youd like. By the end of the fast I actually looked better than all of them!

I thank Hashem tremendously for sending me the Refuah through Him alone. Had I gotten better from medicine, vitamins, or even a Rabbis Berachah, I would have been mostly thankful and indebted to that thing, and I would say Hashem cured me through this. But here, although I have a great Hakarat Hatov to Rabbi Brog for showing me the right Derech, I know it is Hashem alone who put me in touch with him, and it is Hashem alone who holds the key to Refuah. I also know every second that I don’t have a migraine is only due to Hashems Chessed and absolutely nothing else! I am grateful to Hashem for showing me His hand so clearly, and I am especially grateful that He sent me a shining role model of Bitachon, Torah, Avodah, and Hashkafah whom I proudly call, Rebbe.

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